And there it was… remorse… and guilt mixed with it.
Whatever Daysha had originally intended was going terribly wrong. Fucking great. She only blinked as the ex Agent went on about demons on the White House lawn. All he had been saying stung like bees on her skin. Really she should have guessed that this would have been his reaction, and she felt horrible. Like she’d kicked a dog after it was run over.
“You’re right. I did jump to conclusions.” She said, breathing in as if sucking up her pride from the puddle she’d made of it on the floor. She even winced as he went on about her expectations of coming back in the room.
Leaning forward, her elbows on her knees she looked up to what may have only looked like a withered man, Daysha knew far better that his spark and drive weren’t withered. “Look, I’m sorry if I gave two shits about when you disappeared.” It wasn’t elegant, but it was real.
“I never thought for a minute you were dead.” Daysha’s generally cold eyes softened for a moment.
There was not one drop of sarcasm or contempt as she spoke. But through all the speaking she did, there was a mixture of feeling like an idiot, and a couple drops of guilt. “And I’m sorry I gave so much as a damn to visit you and had some fucking diluted reasoning that I could help. Which I’m clearly not doing right now.” There was a time and place for Daysha to be a cold hearted stubborn bitch, but this wasn’t one of them. Because when Derevko mentioned that case way back when with the urns, that hit home.
Daysha stood up, and grabbed her badge off the table. It felt cold from sitting in the room. More like icy, as it was a brutal reminder that she should never let the fact she’s a cop drop for a minute. She was also uncertain if she let her feelings get in the way and cloud her judgement. Yeah, she felt something for Derevko. What it was, Daysha was entirely unsure of. Brother, uncle, cousin... something. And what was once those unspoken things you never said to someone (especially when you just wanted to punch them some days), was now out in the open. Fucking stupid Daysha.
Then something struck her as she returned it to her pocket, but didn’t turn back to Derevko. “Wait, did you say candle?”