Placing her elbows on the table and interlocking her own hands.
"Naturally I have no desire to not do my duties, I would not have chosen to take the steps to join the order if I were not ready to do what were needed for it. It shall be said though that at the end of the day we are still humans with emotions that can come into play and to make things harder for no reason is never good." Then again this roundabout way were hard to navigate.
Shrugging her shoulder a little.
"That sounds good, my aim were to try and be a bit more tactful but it's not really my nature to be so." Sadly enough. "The first issue came already when I were new in the city and we escorted Kaze to his cell, you reacted to not flirt in front of you." Giving it a second to sink in "The rest comes from observing you over time, whilst many would probably think that the negative emotions lies in a failed relationship so do I not think that is the full end of the story."
Taking a cleansing breath.
"Rather I believe that you put a blame on yourself for him leaving the order and weakening the Arrows in this city and that it mixes in with your feelings. That is why I had hoped that a cleansing ritual could help you sort through it and remove any negative emotions for how you feel and to no longer blame yourself."
Sipping her water.
"There you have the full story and do not worry deceit is not something I employ unless needed for my duties one of which is to do all I can to make sure you are well both physically and emotionally." They were the only person around the other one could be fully open with at least in her mind after all. "I care about you Phoenyx and only want to do what I can to be of aid for you." Her words said with utmost sincerity and her usual calmness.