Wherever you go, there you are.
Had they made a big circle? It felt like it. He could have been okay. A momentary thing? A one off? But that wasn't what they were talking about. Was it?
Variety? Contrast?
They're euphemisms. In any context, what's really being said is, 'I'm not satisfied'. Whether that's sex, the need to travel, to redecorate a room, to further education, that is what's being said. And really hard to hear from the one person who you feel like that the rest of the world could disappear, as long as you were together.
"I'm, uh, not saying Varyx isn't...," Whatever the alternative was. "And I Hear you. I get it. There's a whole world out there for you, and a half-dozen more Truths to See. I understand."
Laughter on a train in the wind. Eyes closed to hear it. Funny. He'd always liked the idea of showing her all the things she'd missed.
Exploring Truths.
Just never realized that meant half a lifetime of sleeping with other people.
"But what does 'try this' mean? You and Varyx? A one-off? Or. Or are you, uh. Saying that, like. Anyone you're comfortable with and your body wants. That you're going to... need constant contrast. That, that's who you want to be. Or need to be."
He shrugged and stared at their hands. The next words were dull and wooden.
"And what is it, exactly, you want? From me. Now that, you know, I understand."