JC's question prompts a brief hesitance in Conner; brief, but present. How much could he trust this Wolf? Standing on the same threshold where Quinn had left him last Court, his Beast was slaking on bitterness and paranoia. But still, an answer was due. "I was Embraced because I failed someone close to me in life. A pattern it seems. "I was scrambling for answers and vengeance in a world I thought was chaotic and uncaring. Through the Sanctum I learned that there was a higher justice in the world, and that I could be an extension of it. That a life of undeath could still have hope." There is a muted pain in his eyes, but the scholarly interest from earlier returns. "You mentioned the concept of original sin before: that Man is spiritually dead. And yet, God provides both common grace for Man to experience and display good as well as the possibility of salvation. We Kindred didn't invent the sins we carry with the Beast, and even with it Kindred are still capable of good. It is rare, it is hard, but it is precious." Even in Sacramento. "Through the Sanctum I learned that I could walk in undeath and perhaps even be a better person than I was in life."
JC reproaches him, and Conner inwardly snarls. Who is this lone mutt who thinks he can talk down to me? What game is he playing? He should die now and let the fools who valued him mourn whatever dust is left!
But the threshold of Elysium had other lessons stored in his memory, particularly the one that carried him through his last court: power through surrender.
Conner nods somberly. "You have a point. I apologize for the harshness of my words." Time to practice what he preached. "I will admit I have a great bias towards how other Covenants operate." Some more than others. "If nothing else, I would hope to convey that not all 'fulfillments' are good." Some simply caused more pain than good. "Especially amongst the Sanctum, the potential for abuse is great amongst our kind."
So, Mr. Smith's interest wasn't purely academic? Conner gave the Savage a once over, trying to imagine him in Sanctum garb and reading through the Testament under a lamp, taking notes. It was a stretch; but no more than some others he could imagine. "Your interest is welcome. And really..." Conner gives a rueful smile. "Nobody's 'religious' just on their own. What comes first is commitment." He nods. "Yes, the Second Estate has carved a powerful legacy amongst Kindred, much like how Christianity has expanded throughout the world. In many Domains it holds the same sway as the Invictus could." But certainly not here, and perhaps not with him at the helm. At least not yet.
His expression softens a bit, and he holds JC's gaze to make sure the Savage doesn't mistake him. "I understand my position here is precarious. But I want to learn; and I want to stay. And for as long as I'm here, I'll gladly do my best to answer your questions about the Lancea Sanctum. As far as looking for a Covenant to join..." There were a lot of variables to consider, but Conner only had one he wanted to hit at the moment. "If you were to join me in the Sanctum, I would want you to join because you believed it to be the right thing, and not because someone else told you to or if it seemed the quickest way to gain social power." As sincere as his statement was, there was an undercurrent of a motive: he didn't want someone using him as a proxy to get at his Clan. Whatever his mistakes, whatever his weaknesses or accomplishments, they would be his and his alone.