Eyes on Fire

[Titania]

"Nobody does. That's the secret, you learn by doing. But you keep doing what you feel comfortable with, and you'll never grow and learn", she bites her lips, "I get it, you enjoy sex. Who doesn't, but your whole life doesn't need to revolve around it"

[Yamiyo Lillich]

Taking a couple of breathes before shaking her head.
"In all honesty so well yes it's nice I can't deny that but." Biting her lower lip and looking down, trying to gather her thoughts. "All I really want is a good book and someone to hold me for a night without it needing to be sex." Taking another couple of breaths. "Or to hold someone, to make them tea and soup when they are sick and just have someone who likes me for what's beneath the skin and for who I am and someone that I can trust and love and whom just want's to be loved in return and let's me love them and be there for them." Yes she was great on the sexual scene but that was not what she desired most but how to portray that and not rely on her appearance or lying beauty now that was harder.

Fixing her hair a bit.
"Sorry about the rambling."

[Titania]

"That's nothing abnormal as far as I can see. I mean, you're expressing a genuine desire for intimacy. We all crave love, deep inside", so why did she exactly act as an oversexualized demon most of the time?
She figures it had to do with the Succubus' insecurity.

[Yamiyo Lillich]

Finally turning her eyes to look into the tellurics eyes.
"Of course we do, I know that I come of as just being all about carnal desires and yes I do admit that this body have an extreme craving for it that I am constantly struggling with." Her eyes glistening a bit. "But really that is just a part of me, there is much more beneath it and to just sit on the couch whilst stroking someone that would call me their girlfriends openly to the worlds hair as she rested her head on my lap would make me happier than a thousand nights of intercourse." Breaking the eye contact, this was starting to get a bit hard.

Holding back a tear.
"But really I doubt this were what you wanted the evening to be about."

[Titania]

The Succubus was living her life as a function of others. Not just sexually, but even emotionally, she was dependent on her partner's affection.
It was dangerous and unhealthy.
"Listen. You should search for a goal you can achieve by yourself, for yourself and strive for it. You shouldn't let your happiness be defined but what you want to do with others", for a member of the Court of Desire, the Succubus was more focused on her projection upon others, than what she really wanted herself. And she wondered just how hard her Durance must have been

3 successes

Date	Action	Roll	Result
2020-11-17 06:36:55	Titania rolls 6 to Wits + Emp (10 Again)	2, 8, 1, 3, 9, 9	3 successes

[Yamiyo Lillich]

Blinking a bit in confusion.
"What do you mean? I wan't to be in a loving relationship where I do not need to lie" or be a lie "and to help others. To make others happy and be able to be of use or aid brings me joy." A bit of sadness hiding beneath her words as she speaks of a relationship or basically anything connected to love as of late, something missed and regrets. Still her views were genuine she really seems to just want to experience love and to be loved for more than the false looks everyone sees in her. Not a single emotion of how she is wrong, how that is not a goal for herself can be seen within her. Still there seems to be something deeper than what is just a part of most if not all of the Lost, something stemming from before her durance perhaps?

Taking a moment before giving a coy smile.
"How about we do a little experiment for us both then?" She obviously tried to hide something but there were a small flutter in her voice, her eyes shining a bit as she seemed to take some delight and happiness from whatever her plan might be.

[Titania]

She nods, "Very well, what do you suggest?"

[Yamiyo Lillich]

Looking at Titania with warm kind eyes.
"That we go on a date." Taking a couple of seconds to let that sink in. "However not a normal one. First of you get to decide the entire evening including what I wear. I am not allowed to try and seduce or use my body to gain any advantages." Not that she could if Titania weren't into girls to begin with. "For me it will be a view on how to not rely on sex appeal or go for carnal events and for you it will be your first time experiencing a date with another woman."

Keeping her eyes on her, a bit nervous over this risky proposition.
"We set in advance that it's meant to be a one date thing nothing more no intention to make it more serious however if you do experience true joy and would like to see if there could be more so do you have to kiss me at any time during the date or as it ends." Feeling her heart beat rapidly nervous over how she would take this. "Lastly it needs to be a proper and romantic one, I will pay for the entire event so no need to hold back."

[Titania]

She looks at the Succubus, perplexed. Was it just an indirect method to come on her? If so, she scored bigly for creativity.
Anyway, she frowns. "I think you don't need a romantic date. You need a friend, somebody that you know will not seek any romantic involvement with you. Yamiyo, don't misunderstand. You're lovely... but you lack certain... attributes that I'm very much fond of", she grins, "and I'm not talking about", she points at the male mannequin, "not just that at least".
Was she being too harsh? Nope, not really. Early in her existence she realized that the best way to keep a relationship intact was to not feed false expectations.
Not to say she didn't like girls, heck, she was a member of the Spring Court. She LOVES having Fun, especially while drunk. In that case she would do anything to pursue the object of her desire, and pretty ranks high on her list. It's just that she isn't drunk at the moment, which means her modesty is still intact.
Besides, she likes older and more meaty. Oh, and stoic, mysterious types.
"And I've always dated older", she winks. Besides, she was too petite.

[Yamiyo Lillich]

A friend? That confused her a bit, wasn't a partner the closest friend you could possibly have the one you shared everything with? The one whom were meant to be your best and closest friend where you could be more vulnerable with than anyone else?

Looking a bit down for a brief second.
"Ohh well it was a gamble, still no loss in asking." Her main goal with it having been to see if she could learn more about how to perhaps approach romantic interests and not just sexual ones later down the lines made it easier to deal with the rejection though, Titania had already said that she didn't like girls so there were no longer any loss to be taken from there.

Chuckling a bit.
"Sorry I do not know your age at all but you are right I am probably younger, might even be the youngest in the community or at least amongst them." Not that she had asked anyone for their age except for Cassandra and the age of the Lost could be hard to see at times.

"Anyway where to next?" Still holding the bright ones hand, even if it were nothing romantic there so did she love the warmth of touch especially from other women and Titania were still an incredible beauty.