“Do any of us know? I just have plans for the moment that could fade away with the sands of time. I don’t think wanting those things is bad, Desire isn’t bad. When desire becomes obsession is when we have to be careful. I want to not have to look over my shoulder the rest of my life. Foolish? Unlikely? Most certainly. But is the act of wanting foolish? I don’t think so, it gives us dreams, drive, it helps guide us and push us forward.
“We just have to be careful with how.” She continued her tale, hitting his point on the head though he didn’t frown, no disapproval or judgement graced his face. How many Winter assassins were there, how many folks to keep the quiet, to deal with threats? Why would he judge that?
“I’ve felt what it’s like to have my last hope die, to have my very essence laid bare, stretched thin and torn from me to become something new. All of us have had something taken from us that we will never get back. We make do.
“Yami has a good point though. We say in the program the good thing about rock bottom is you only have one direction left to go. Up. You rebuild. You might not be the same person you were then, you might become someone and something new. In the case of addiction that’s usually not a bad thing.”
He nodded when she asked how he would come back from that.
“Same way I came back with my new-found freedom. One foot in front of another. I might stumble, I might fall but if I keep moving forward at least I’m making progress. I understand though, more than you think I might.” Something worse than death, something I’ll regret until I am but dust.
He frowned watching Yami struggle, he hadn’t meant to cause her this amount of distress, this amount of discomfort but Coco came first right now, Yami would have her own time. He nodded in agreement with her statements, he agreed with the spirit and the sentiment not necessarily all of the content but her heart had been in the right place.
“I am always willing to help how I can, that is an open offer."