Dirt Nap is silent as it seems Alice Hart decides to poke the bear a little bit from something Twist said to show graciousness to him in his talkativeness. The Beasts are there all the time, whether Masked or not, he muses to himself. He nods at the Seneschal's apparent curiosity as to how he would make himself the subject of experiment.
"Well, Ma'am, Seneschal, Priscus Hart," Dirt Nap says with a low and slightly more pronounced drawl. "I suppose it isn't any kind of secret of the Order to say that my own methods are not the normal way of doing things. What I mean to say is, from that example I gave, of using the rustling bag to change the horse, is that I make myself subject the same way. Something that would bring a reaction, that I cannot control, can be used, in smaller doses, over some time, with me not being able to stop it for a time, to force a Change in me that has nothing to do with a choice that I have to make over and over, a Change in the basic reaction, so to speak." He 'explains'.
"That kind of Change is permanent, and I have so far survived two. It's not so much a difficulty to force The Change, that will happen sure enough, it's that with an awful lot of preparing over time, I only tend to have a good chance of the Change I want to happen. There's always a chance The Change will go another way, and instead of having a different reaction that I hope for, I have a negative one that I never would have wanted, permanent like." Dirt Nap says quietly.
"So far that hasn't happened to me, though I have seen it be the end of others."
Dirt Nap is silent as Twist and Alice Hart seem to do a little bit of poking at each other, and then seem to come to one mind on a memory they share, which has nothing to do with him. He is still and watchful of that apparent, shared intimacy, not doing or saying anything to draw attention to himself even to breath or look away.
When Twist seems surprised that he didn't come out of the womb the first time wrassling with a colt, Dirt Nap smiles slightly.
"Your Grace, I guess we all, every one of us probably have a story with sometwistssurprises to it, that'd be a safe bet." He says with a nod.
"I was a young man in college, studying for the ministry, living in a big city down south." He says. "I did drive a pick up truck, but that's about the extent of my similarity to being a cowboy. Then I got cancer, and took some time dying of it. My Sire seemed to take to how stubborn I was about going, and decided to see what it would look like if an echo of me lasted a bit longer than natural."
Dirt Nap pauses in still silence for a long moment. Then he abruptly takes a breath and continues, "So, after that it took me a while to figure some things out, and speaking of the Clans and their ways, we aren't much for putting people on a path that's not of their own making. So I drifted a bit. I did manual labor out in the sticks and found that ranches actually worked out pretty well for my needs, once I learned I could live off the animals. I spent a bit of time with animals, finding them easier to manage than people and less particular about my strange hours and ways. I found there's a whole economy of people working on farms and ranches that don't fit into the ways of record keeping, and tax paying, and that, plus having a knack for sussing out what might be keeping an animal from being cooperative by being able to talk to it when no one is around earned me regular work drifting further out from the cities along the plains."
Dirt Nap chuckles, "I took my name from putting coyotes down; the boys called it 'giving 'em a dirt nap'. By then I'd learned how to sleep secure in the ground, and I had gotten past any idea that I was alive, so the name seemed to fit, so the next ranch, I told them to call me that, and I consider it my true name now." He says.
He pauses in silence as if remembering another life or another person's life.
Then he looks up and away, never directly in the eyes and says, "As for being a Dragon, that came pretty soon after; my Sire made an introduction or maybe a gift of me to the Order. The way the Order holds a member's individual path or study as near holy has worked out for me. There's a lot of ways to contribute and serve. Sure, building up the power and resources is a thing, but it's meant to be tools for better learning, not the end all and be all. I have tended to learn better with different tools, mostly what I have on my back, and as long as I have results to show, and others can prove my work by doing it themselves, it's been counted as being a worthwhile contribution."