Waking up feeling emotionally drained, her recent escapades had left her filled with regret but at least it had ensured her continued survival for the next few weeks.
Pitching up her usual glass of aloe water, caffeine weren't her thing and to much of it would leave her far to shaky making it hard for her both to sign at times but more importantly leaving her shaking and feeling uneasy.
Sitting down in her bay window, counting the money she had made last night, looking it over and counting it again and again feeling dirtier each time whilst starting to wonder if other succubus would have felt the same way? She had never met neither another romancer nor another succubus, wonder if they had the same issues as her or not? Were succubus overall perhaps women that had once had issues with the sexual plane and now being forced with not only leaving a sexual mark everywhere but also feeling these deep senses pulsations of lust and desire overwhelm them, making it hard to stay away from chances to encounter it? Were these perhaps the origin or the tale's of succubus? She could see how plenty of scorned men that got rejected by women with the gifts she knew came with being a succubus gave would demonize them especially if some of them through some means could penetrate the mask that would easily explain the demonisation of them, thinking on it a bit more closely when it came to demons and the occult alignment of them Lilith were one of the first ever mentioned succubus not to mention that she were the only one of them to not be able to spawn actual children just other demons, were this perhaps the story of a very old succubus that lead a freehold in the distant past consisting of mainly other women?
Connecting various Lost and their kith to folk lore and see how they at one point or another had given help to create many of these folk tales were easy but she didn't fit in with folk tales nor myths like those she had met around her she were one that had been branded as a demon, thinking on it a bit harder so Lilith were the first human woman but she were tossed out were she perhaps the first ever victim to be kidnapped beyond the hedge as well?
No that was to far a stretch, that would mean taking to much religion into it and she had no trust in this forced way of belief written by greedy men over the last millennia.
Nevertheless these thoughts were interesting and it also raised a new found wonder in her how much had most of the Lost change on a mental plane? Did they have parts of themselves they felt equally as forced to despite not wanting it or was it natural to them? Yes everyone had changed that was a given, could you even manage to endure the torture they all had endured and not change? Most likely not but were there some kind of purposed plan to create a conflict in their minds and senses of self making sure that even if they escaped so would this realm punish their minds with losing themselves in a manner they never would have wanted?

Hmm the last part might be an over analyzation but the initial part of the succubus origins might have some bearings at least, it would be interesting to know more on that topic and also if there were any reason to why her kith's seemed so rare or perhaps this were just a false idea she had met various other Lost but in the end they weren't that many and a lot of them had been quite different.
Nor did she truly know how kith's worked, she knew the term and had understood how to connect them to various myths, legends, folk tales and so forth but her knowledge of the kith's in other seemings weren't as clear to her, she knew they were there of course and some of them were easy to understand a basic of at least but the depths still eluded her.

Sigh I still have a lot to learn it seems, that is why I am trying to stay put though.

Watching the sunrise, her mind now filled with various thought's on the history of her kind helping her push out the shame and regret she felt from last night from her mind.