At the request to try and help, Brigit's expression adopted a look of pity for the young Crescent. So hopeful and, though she wish he could remain that way, Brigit knew she had to level him with some truth.
"It does," she answers when the young pup asks about whether or not things had to be as they were. This time though, the Redeemed's tone was bereft of her usual shortness.
"Sometimes it's best to recognize when certain truths don't waver," she continues, "That's near important a lesson as rituals and rites. You are not the first to want to make a once-Pure whole in the eyes of Mother Luna. None have succeeded."
Brigit lets the pup rise and gather a second drink for himself without interruption, eyes fixing on him as he seemed hesitant to continue. The Redeemed's gaze lacked judgement. She had told her story many times. She knew the effect it could have on those unprepared.
"I changed during a hunt," she said, "The previous day, a small patrol had come across a small group of Hunters. Wolfbloods. Associated with some Urdaga in a nearby territory. Knowing the wolfbloods could sense one of the pack, I was dispatched to scout for them and, when I found them, radio in their location in order to mountain a lightning assault."
Leaning forward, Brigit's eyes did not leave Nathaniel's.
"However, once I reached their camp, I felt the Rage boil inside as I heard them speak of a coming attack on one of our checkpoints," she said, "When I came to, the walls of their camper was painted red. I had ripped them apart and what was left was twisted and near unrecognizable, save one body."
Despite the gory visual, Brigit's tone remains flat and even, evidencing a humanity tattered by the actions of the past. There is no real remorse, just a quiet acceptance for what had come to pass.
"My entry to the pack was pretty smooth thereafter," Brigit admitted, "I had already received the proper rite before my Change, as I was nuzusul. When the Change came, Mother Luna's gaze was already forced away. What followed was a relative continuation of the life I already had. We worshipped, fought, and trained for the war to come. The war to tear down the Gauntlet and rouse the slumbering soul of Father Wolf through ritualistic conversion and sacrifice. The only difference was that I was now among the Blessed."
"After a couple of years, I was leading my own little posse in the pack, being favored to succeed my grandfather as Alpha in the event of his death. I ran patrols and supply runs with my crew and, during one fateful night, some of our contacts told us of a nomadic pack of Urdaga nearing our territory. In my arrogance, I pursued them, believing my group to be more than sufficient to deal with them. I was wrong."
Another drink.
"I had assumed the pack was young and inexperienced, hence their nomadic nature, but these were People with a lot of years between them," she said, "They ravaged us to the point that I fell during the battle. My fellow packmates abandoned me, believing the Forsaken would kill me for having wounded many of their own. They did not. I was out for a while, but when I came too I found myself too weak to flee and they took the opportunity to speak the truth and make me see. They took me to the Lodge and, from there, I was redeemed in the eyes of Luna, if not wholly forgiven."
"Once the Lodge determined I was ready to join the Urdaga formally I was introduced to local tribal representatives. The Talons selected me and I succeeded in their initiation," Brigit says, "Following that it was an issue of establishing myself away from my family, but they had a plan for that too. Ezekiel wanted to see me again."
Realizing she had waxed over that little detail, Brigit felt the desire to explain their association more clearly.
"Ezekiel and I were raised together in the compound, but, more than that, we were selected to mate," she explained, "He left the compound a few years prior after being beaten and left to die by my grandfather when he decided Ezekiel was no longer worthy of my companionship. The pack that saved him was the same that showed me mercy and he had told them of the compound - and me. When I was deemed saved, going to him was the most natural choice and so I was granted a new identity as his wife. They say it is also the easiest, but I know all to well that they're after the same thing my grandfather's pack was. Wars need soldiers... Luckily for them, I've gotten close to Zeek, I even love him, but I'm not ready. Not yet."
"I came to Sacramento because this is where Zeek already lived, I was largely unaware of the city's history until I met Em and the others," the Once-Pure concludes as she leans back, offering a slight shrug, "Then I met them and the rest you know."