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"I wish I knew. I mean, I've thought about it a great deal. I've always had self-confidence issues. I'm no psychologist, but it may relate to my upbringing and the circumstances of my Embrace. I'm fairly certain it has nothing to do with any Bloodline. I've just never really felt at ease with myself. It's my normal. But it is inconvenient. It's like its own Beast, always present, always lurking, like a voice in my head pointing out all my shortcomings. I'm sure everyone has a voice like that. But mine is just...mine is just more so."
Yet speaking as he is, Derek doesn't seem resistant to sharing his own vulnerabilities. Perhaps he feels obligated to offer up something of himself after Lina had exposed a self-realized flaw.
"Perhaps its a fear of failure as well as a fear of success. Either course has its consequences. Perhaps I hesitate out of uncertainty. No, I'm sure it's out of uncertainty. Unless it's a clear path where I can see all the obstacles...though I know that's not realistic or perhaps even ideal. Anyways...I'm sure I could on. It's something I wish to better define and understand about myself."
He looks away awkwardly, wondering if he rambled too much or was unclear with what he is trying to convey.
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