Bookshelves and Convos!

[Aurora]

Snorting as she laughed, “I get that. There is a lot to learn, and sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming, not knowing where to start.” The flush was unexpected, but she doesn’t say anything.

An eyebrow arches, “Really? You’ve decided to not pursue that?” she was surprised, very surprised. “What changed your mind about it if you don’t mind me asking.” It was a worthy profession.

“Maybe now it’s about prioritizing what you want to study. Going after what will make you feel the most happiness and accomplished. You get to decide what that is now, no one else.” She never liked the idea of others telling you what was important to study and what wasn’t.

Now that was not where she was expecting him to go. But he did. And this was a delicate topic, full of landmines and millions of ways to insult and upset others. Part of the reason she avoided it.

There was a deep breath as she thought for a moment. Not wanting to get into religion, but not wanting him to feel like she wasn’t open minded. Again…difficult. But if it came down to sharing her feelings for someone or religion, she’d pick religion. Any day of the week.

“I,” she begins, then stops. Stupid religion. “I’m not a religious person. Never have been, and I won’t start.” Nope. “But I respect what you’re saying, so long as it’s not, like, a way to convert or something.” No judgement. “So if believing in that helps you, and brings you some level of peace, then I’m all for it. Believing in something is good, or so I’ve been told.” And now the whole marriage and kids thing was making sense. But hell, who was she to judge? Whatever worked for him.

[Kaze]

Kaze sighs, "Yeah. That was hard to admit." He says when Aurora asks about him not pursuing further medical training, or rather being a paremedic. "It took me some time to figure that I was into it as a 'lessor of two evils' kind of thing. I mean, if I had to be part of people getting hurt, at least I could be about helping them not die instead of doing the hurting."

"The thing is. I don't really want to pursue anything where my job is to be just interacting with people when their hurt, even if my job isn't to actually hurt them." He says. "That's part of the thing with acting. It's interaction that's...positive. People come because they want to, if they do come. Not because their bleeding...you know?"

He sighs again. "That's what I meant about the difference between discipline and self-discipline. I was just doing the thing where I ignored how I felt and made myself do what felt bad for me, telling myself I didn't matter and my feelings didn't matter, only the 'great good' or only other people. It sucked, and honestly I think it just came from not really liking myself very much, and believing that I didn't deserve to be happy." He says.

"So...yeah, maybe it is a little bit selfish to be an actor instead of a paremedic. I'm...kind of okay with that now."

When Aurora talks about religion, or really says she doesn't want to, Kaze raises his hands as if in surrender. "Hey, no problem at all." He says, smiling. "I didn't meant to go there, I mean, not to say that I know what's best for you or anyone else. I guess I was just trying to figure out if believing in Fate was something that helped you to do what you really wanted or needed, or made it harder?" He asks.

Okay! Last day and I am totally okay with a 'fade to black' kind of deal where we just assume that they talked some more but nothing super important was said or happened before they were done?

Sorry! I am having so much fun and Kaze just won't shut up! LOL!

[Aurora]

“In a way, you still could help people. The training that you’ve received could save someone’s life one day. You could be out walking around and someone has some sort of medical emergency. They’ll be lucky to have you there to know what to do.”

A shake of her head, “I wouldn’t call it selfish. The reason you explained tells me you would have been a paramedic for the wrong reasons, and not happy with the decision. Recognizing that means you knew your heart wasn’t in it, and that would have a been bad for the patients." so no, not selfish.

“Believing in Fate helped me not step in when doing so would have caused a problem. Having the abilities, we have at our finger tips can often mean making difficult decisions. Understanding Fate and being ok with wherever it leads makes it easier. I don’t like seeing people hurt or people die, I get no pleasure from that. But I know it’s not my place to rewrite someomes destiny or to stop it from happening. That’s when the universe steps in and kicks my ass.” A bitter chuckle, “Been there and done that. But, I know my views are different then others. I’m not sure if that answered your question or not, but it you want to get more into it, we can.” Glancing at her beer, “But I might need something stronger than beer.”

Thank you for such a fun and insightful scene!

[Kaze]

"Okay." Kaze nods, apparently satisfied and content, even perhaps relieved at Aurora's calm explanation of how her believe and respect for Fate brings order to her life. "I don't know if it's your Fate to be happy, but I think you deserve to be." He says.

"Hey, yeah. Aurora. Thank you so much, for thinking of me with the shelf, for the food, the beer, and the company, most of all the company." Kaze grins. "I really enjoyed hanging out and just...talking, you know? Especially about stuff that matters. I appreciate it." I'm honored, actually.

"So yeah..." Kaze sets the empty glass down. "I should head out. I have some stuff I need to do...can I call you later about setting up the Shapechanging at the Circle? Like in a couple days?"

My pleasure! Thank you too! I learned about Kaze, and what he will do next, and also about Aurora! Fun!

So you opened the thread, so I am making what I figure is Kaze's last post, and Aurora gets the final word! when you close! :_