The 14th had come around once again, as her eyes opened she prayed that this month would be different that things would be back to normal.
Pushing herself to remain in bed for as long as possible, trying to stay groggy, she had consumed alcohol last night in order to sleep longer and in order to be out of it as much as possible when she rose.

Her head lightly swaying from last night, having forced herself to not consume any water she wanted the side effects desiring to be as out of it as possible but in the end her meager tricks only served to delay the inevitable things had not turned back to normal.

Horrible memory flashes clashing in her mind, she was once more reminded of that night the night that she couldn't get out of her mind no matter how hard she tried. The now all to familiar memories of the cold steel, the shadowy figures, the inhuman appearances mixed with the human ones and the ones that she no longer was sure which were true and which were just her memories of the night slowly turning it all into a worse nightmare filled with horrors that was never really there only existing in her mind.

Looking at her phone, smiling as she could see how she had actually received texts from Chunhua, it was nice to have a friend that actually cared about her whilst the feeling was new it still meant a lot to her to have an actual friend.

Filling her glass with Aloe water, snuggling down on the couch turning on some Phineas and Ferb and just letting it go whilst remaining on the couch all day just trying to forget, trying to be free of this nightmare wishing for things to go back to normal. Knowing that she still needed to talk about this, to tell those around her but she still hadn't found the right time to do so, it was far to private and still haunted her mind far to much to easily speak of it. Every day that passed seemed to make it harder and harder to speak about it, feeling like she was either hiding something or like she would just be a bother if she told anyone, coming of as even weaker and feebler than she already were and really how much could she push her luck before it become to much? How much could she say before people would get fed up with her, everyone had always discarded her before so why should now be of any difference? No she needed to find a stronger position, to make herself matter and be someone people would either smile from seeing or whom had some meaning if she couldn't do that soon so would the cycle just repeat itself.

No no no just watch the mindless disney show and let it take your mind, don't think, let yourself fall into the empty mind.